No Direction

Bettering myself daily

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Senior Year

So I’m currently drowning in the semester. Group projects, essays, readings, and assignments are all starting to pile up and weigh me down. My so-called senioritis is at an all-time high and I haven’t even made it to the halfway point yet. Everyday is a struggle, especially those when my mind takes over and renders me useless during the monotony of the day to day. It feels so strange waking up each day wondering if some overwhelming feeling is going to grab hold and not let go until REM sleep sets in again.

Currently what is pushing me through is the support of my best friend. Always there with an ear to listen, a shoulder to cry on, a witty remark to make me smile, and all of the unconditional love that I deserve.

My biggest motivator though, is knowing that after we walk at graduation and officially become alumni, we are setting off on an adventure I have been craving since I came back from Spain.
We are packing up and flying off to Europe to backpack around Ireland, the UK, and maybe Germany/France (for hopefully) a month or more as a graduation celebration. We can go where we want, see what we want, do what we want, and just live free. 

Although the idea of graduating with no plans, no job, and no money is the most fucking terrifying thing I can imagine - I know I’ll make it.

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I get drunk, I sober.
I fall asleep, I wake.
I try to eat, I vomit.
When will I move past this?